Nicks and bruises

Bachen,

I'm writing this to let you know what I probably could not say over the phone because like you, I do it better with written words.

I feel useless. I am supposed to make you happy and fill your life with joy, but barely 2 months has passed and i have already made you have the flu and allergic reactions on your lips once too much(Only GA should have this honor). I know no amount of iloveyous can take away the hurt u feel right now. That little nick in your heart will always be there to stay.

I'm new to this, I only have so much tricks up my sleeve to cheer you up whenever I fumble. It was especially stupid of me to laugh it off but I failed to see no matter how tough you can be (and i do admire you as a tough woman who can stand on her own), you will always be the soft and sweet girl who looks to me as someone who makes her feel special and loved.

I was the one you allowed into your heart  and yet was careless enough to treat it like a playground instead of treading softly with care like I should in a delicate garden. All I ask is to be given the chance and the honor, to stay on in this beautiful garden. So I may water it with endless love and plant the seeds of tomorrow. To watch it bloom to its fullest, till Keukenhof is but a shadow.

You are my source of my joy. My pride. And my future. Lovers claim they can't bear the thought of being away for just a day.

I can't bear the distance between our hearts, Each time you hurt, that's what grows apart..
A thousand miles away is nothing, For to me your heart is everything..

For what it is worth,
I love you.

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