Missed chances

I had a dream. About you. And I knew it was just a dream. So i embraced you for as long as i could. Because i dont know when i'll ever have that chance again. And then i whispered into your ear, "i miss you."

And here i am in the dark of my room.

A Parting Shot

There is no point in me being bitter about anything, there was a point of time when i was genuinely happy and you were part of it. I grew as a person and you sparked the change. After all you went through, it is fair to say you have tried and i can't really fault you for it.

From this point on, I wish you nothing but happiness and success in all aspects of your life. You are an amazing person and you deserve the best. May you be happier with Ariff, i assume, or whoever it is that made u smile again than you ever were, with me.

Thank you, for all the wonderful memories that came out of us. Thank you for your time with me. Thank you for all that was good. And I seek forgiveness from you, for all the hurt and anguish I have caused.

Moving Ahead

The seeds of doubt was planted. I have always thought if it was unneccessary, don't say it. Now I dont know if it was true or not.

But the seeds of doubt has been planted. And overnight it has grown. It has crowded my mind. And now I think its true. 

Well the weird part is, I am not angry, nor disappointed or sad. I just think about it. That's all. It will go away in time just like every other negative thoughts i have about every other thing.

I don't like to feed the negativity. It is a waste of my mental focus. And right now i need every ounce of my mental focus.

Like Barney said..
When I am sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead.

Well, words have been said that could never be taken back. Again, if its not neccessary dont say it. 'Just saying' has no purpose and does not solve problems.

What's done is done.

Flip the page and walk away Hadi. You know yourself well.

Ps. A 5 min prep surprise and a present that 'havent arrived'... shows how much 'care' some people have for you.

Which is why actions always prove words mean nothing.